At just 20 years old Sam wants to lose over 60kg so she can have a family with
fiancé and Challenge partner Blake
.
Update 10
Whoops! Didn’t find the time to enter my diary this week!
Update 9
I am absolutely exhausted this week what with all the running around I have to do between working two jobs. It has helped me lose some weight, though, which is great. I am missing the gym – yes, you read right. It strange but true!
Update 8
It has been a really stressful week; emotions have been running high and energy levels very low. I am finding it hard to incorporate exercise into a packed work schedule and it’s difficult not to stress out about making it to Finale. All-in-all, it’s been another big crazy week in the world of Sam.
My week was capped off by a visit from my dad, Nan and Pop who I see every six months at most. The last time I saw them was at Christmas and it was great because they are usually my biggest critics and to hear them blown away at how well Blake and I are doing was so good; it boosted my confidence no end. Even my dad, who had seen me more recently, was quite surprised in the changes in my appearance in a short space of time.
This all came at a great time because I am finding it very hard to reach that dreaded 20% weight-loss mark even though I am consistently losing weight and giving it my best. I just feel as though I’m not getting there.
Update 7
This week has seen some pretty good motivational moments for me. I spent half an hour trying on and discarding clothes from my wardrobe because I couldn’t find anything that would stay on; everything fell off as it was too big. I picked up a top that I wore four years ago when Blake and I first got together; it was a little bit too big and I was ridiculously happy! It felt like I was floating! It's moments like this that help to ease some of the physical pain and break down the mental barriers I need to get through to see this thing through.
Update 6
It’s been a pretty good week. It was great to catch up with everyone and it was also good motivation to continue to do better. However it was a bit of a stressful week in that there was so much happening with the Sydney trip and my birthday all within a few days of each other.
Plus I have been really ill. I’ve hardly been able to eat and am backwards and forwards from the hospital. Feeling really low thinking about the training time that is being wasted, just when I am feeling good and wanting to go the gym. Words cannot express how bad it’s making me feel.
Update 5
I’m having a slightly better week this week. I am eating more and feeling better and the results are improving. I am enjoying the Meal Replacement Shakes and I am feeling good.
I am feeling slightly apprehensive about my weekly weigh-in as I’m worried that the scales won’t reflect my hard work. This tends to be one of the things that triggers my self-doubt and I end up relapsing to my old ways.
It’s great to get so much encouragement from people at the gym and at work, especially from the people I recommend the Meal Replacement Program to. I feel like I am not only doing myself a favour but I am doing them a favour by encouraging them to try the program and make a positive step in their own journey.
I am so worried that Finale is going to come around and I will still be here making excuses for why I couldn’t do it. I am still struggling to find the woman inside of me that can do anything. I wonder why it’s so easy to find good in others, yet so hard to find it in oneself.
Update 4
Well, after kicking myself in the bum and forcing myself to understand that the weight won’t come off all by itself, I have tried a lot harder this week. I am still not doing as much as I could or should be at the gym but I am slowly getting back on track. I have been going to the gym at 5.30am and doing as much as I physically can manage before I stumble home again and have done this around four times this week.
Weigh-in day was disappointing this week. My results can only be described as poor. I hoped that I would do much better and that I would be closer to being ready to buy the dress I have in mind for my birthday. Looking at my results was quite devastating, but I suppose that I need to keep in mind that I weighed myself on a different set of scales. Blake also said there was a difference of 5kg between the different scales he used. I am really wishing we had used one set of reliable scales from the initial weigh-in; it has all been very disheartening.
Anyway, here’s hoping for a better week next week. I am freaking out a bit about losing enough weight by the time Finale comes around.
Update 3
Staying motivated has been a bit tricky for me this week. I have found it pretty hard to fit so much into so few hours. On some days I have even had a hard time getting out of bed!
After giving myself a real talking to I am trying to get back right into the swing of things. I know I need to work really hard to get myself back on track and past the point where normally (in the past) I would have just given up.
See you next week!
Update 2
This week hasn’t been too good. I’ve had a pretty bad case of the flu so it has been very hard to get motivated and get moving.
I have had some fairly good results so far and am quite happy with the centimetres I have lost. The Club website has provided so much support and information about how my body is changing with the ‘before’ pictures and my current photos. I can really see how much I have lost by counting the little fat blobs. Without these features I think I would have had a hard time believing that I really am making a difference to my health.
The intermediate goal I have is to be able to get into a significantly smaller dress size (size 20 or smaller) so I can wear something sexy (for once in my life) for my 21st birthday. I want the day to be something I can look back on and be happy to see pictures of. I want it to be a celebration not only of my life so far, but of the happy life I am working to give myself for the future.
Update 1
With the start of week one, I have found the hardest thing has been to stay motivated and to start doing the recommended amount of exercise. The easiest thing for me has been to lose the weight.
The week started off with a visit to a new local gym. I talked to the manager and he was very supportive and encouraging. It has been getting out of bed each day and making myself go that has been the challenge. What has kept me going are thoughts like ‘After this workout, I will be one or two hours closer to getting married and having kids,' and ‘if I put in one or two hours of hard work in now, I will be able to see three or four more smiles on the faces of my children because mummy will be able to play with them for just that little bit longer.’
I have been having one Biggest Loser Club Meal Replacement Shake in the morning, a bag of air-popped popcorn for a snack, a Shake or a sandwich for lunch and a portion-controlled dinner from my individual program.
Each time I push through and make myself go to the gym or I don’t give in to food temptation, I reward myself by looking at wedding magazines and starting to plan Blake’s and my wedding. The team leaderboard (which lists all the names of the people in The Biggest Loser Club Second Chance Challenge) has been a good motivational tool for me. At the end of the first week I am very pleased with the weight loss I have achieved this week. I am looking forward to more great results next week!